the williams college psychology dept

in the fall of 1978 when i was a sophmore at mt greylock regional highschool we were told the williams college psychology dept offered to do an experiment using hypnosis to improve our football team 's play

the first two strings of the backfield were chosen to participate, though i think participation was voluntary, i am not certain now

the one exception was the first three strings at the quarterback position would be included

i was the third string quarterback at that point

the next year i became starting quarterback

today is the day after the sutherland, texas church shooting and i am about to decide to ask the williams college psych dept for info on the experiment

green river farm

my first job was at modern dairy ( now green river )  farm throwing hay for my cousin moses, 4 years before reagan's federal dairy buyout in 1986

the manager of the farm at the time was a guy called fritzy who would look at me funny like i was supposed to do something odd

turns out he looked very similar to to the german steel magnate fritz thyssen and the farm was next door to the store at five corners recently purchased by william vanderbilt the 3rd whose family were railroad magnates

the town was a small new england college town and for some reason the college once owned one half of the town of littleton maine just north of houlton

five corners

about a quarter of a mile north of the store at 5 corners  stood the hall house where winston churchill's great grandfather once lived

churchill s mother jennie jerome was credited with creating the college s school colors for an early baseball game against harvard

another quarter of a mile north finds our highschool where in our 7th grade year of the class of 1981 a teacher told us one of our fellow students was the grandson of rudolf hess and later the left tackle of our kosier league champ football team mentioned to me on the bus home from practice that he was one of hitler's god children

mt greylock rhs

 both robby steele and fritzy were there during hay season and the way i remember it explained to me was that fritzy was the farms manager, robby was using the farm s milking equipment for his cows and moses was storing his hay in the hayloft

so field farm, once owned by the field family, neighbors cricket creek farm once owned by william vanderbilt, both about a mile west from modern dairy /  green river farm and both at the intersection of oblong road and sloane road 

did the famous " silver spoon communist " frederick vanderbilt field once own the field farm which neighbored the famous " oss capitalist " william h vanderbilt lll 's cricket creek farm?

they were both great - great grandsons of cornelius vanderbilt

so piecing together the old north adams transcript snippets, iberkshires and berkshire eagle stories, mr vanderbilt lived on cricket creek farm which is at the west end of sloan road and bought steel s corners store from jim steele in 1978 while fritzy bought modern dairy farm from jim or robert steele in 1954 and retired while auctioning off his cows in 1980 the year before i worked there

william henry vanderbilt lll

william vanderbilt purchased mr henry l  george s milk route in 1949

modern dairy milk bottle

the milk route may have become modern dairy milk which was the milk delivery service in the area and whose central bottling plant was on main st just before entering north adams from williamstown

milk box

we all had lidded metal boxes saying modern dairy on them outside our doors where the milkman would leave the milk in the morning in 1/2 gallon bottles

view from town selectwoman anne o'connor s fb

the reason it matters is that during ww2 mr  vanderbilt went from being a lieutenant commander in the navy to the executive officer ( second in command )  of the oss s special operations dept then became governor of rhode island before retiring to williamstown where a story begins...

you see, my mom died 7 days after rfk was assassinated on june 6, 1968 and i'm hearing little clicks in my ear as i type almost each of these letters like my ear is receiving the microwave signal through the frey effect

 it's not the phone speaker making the clicking noises it was clicking directly in my left ear...guess they are just more clues to the story that i decided to begin after i died one day back in 1997

thought i had heard mother theresa had died the day before and then thought i heard  princess di died the day after but...

the clicks are gone now and i didn't really die back in 1997 i guess but my heart stopped beating and a choirlike voice asked me if I was ready to die as i literally saw what appeared to be a vision of two wrought gate doors which seemed to be swimming with an off white light


 i said no












https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Paperclip


berkshire eagle regional dairy farming history


a warm south williamstown hello to our russian visitors because russia is very much part of the story...

i had a russian teacher once, or it was alleged she was russian...she was also reported to be one of the top mathematicians in the world...


we weren't allowed to ask her questions because it was towards the end of the cold war and she had two burly russian teacher 's assistants who sat on either side of her who we could ask questions of

i tried to ask a question once and the t a said " go back ... sit " while pointing at my desk

" That Time Deadpool Dressed As Marilyn Monroe To Kill Zombie JFK "

frederick vanderbilt field


frederick's mom


marilyns missing fbi files were discovered in 2012


new jfk files release says j edgar hoover warned robert f kennedy of marilyn tell all book

view from the field farm


lona cohen


venona project


venona list


field farm


cyrus west field

1753 house at field park, named for cyrus field who laid the first trans atlantic cable 


leonard cohen


memory chimes

hammond castle

had a deck of souvenir playing cards from hammond castle which we visited on a 6 th grade field trip to cape ann ...


its builder, john hays hammond, jr had over 400 patents and was considered the father of remote control


i'm trying to find out what happened to me and maybe all of us...

i really was part of an experiment back in 1978...

i thought what happened might have involved the cold war, which was just wrapping up back then

after it was over, they told me i couldn't be hypnotized, but i became adept at the football play i had been having a problem with

i thought the experiment was over they didn't really tell us what the point of it was, that i recall now

a few years later i was at our community college and availed myself of some free therapy sessions i mostly went to to have someone to talk to

a few sessions in the regular therapist told me she wouldn't be doing the therapy anymore, and a man from the williams college psychology dept would be doing the sessions

he was very nice and the sessions still helped so i kept going

while looking to see if the oss special operations had anything to do with mk ultra i came upon john hays hammond which led to the veterans today article and the u s army chemical corps which were involved in some of the experiments with drugs, apparently


the us army chemical corps were known as the dragon soldiers because of mythical green dragon in alchemy lore ?

why did jk rowling choose mt greylock as ilvermorny, the north american  school of witchcraft and wizardry ?

are the green dragon of the chemical corps and the horned serpent of ms rowling's imagination related ?

it may be because there really is the sense of magic or a very pleasant other worldliness about the summit 

also, there was a real harry potter who grew up in north adams and became a musician of note in the early 20th century

i think the mountain is also very important in native american lore

ilvermorny

hopkins observatory

lassel gym

thompson chapel


the voice asked me why i wasn't ready to die

the answer may have been from somewhere well within where survival originates

but before i relate the answer i should mention that the man who took the place of my therapist appeared to be the same professor who performed the experiment in 1978 ...the experiment might still have been underway and i probably wasn't the only one experimented upon


the russian teacher asked me not to tell a secret, according to what i thought were real memories but turned out to apparently be imaginary memories happening in my mind as i thought i was remembering...


but the secret she may have told me not to tell may have been real


william h vanderbilt lll ' s lieutenant governor in rhode island was james o mcmanus


george mcmanus was in the seabees during ww2


but before i mention what the secret the imaginary russian teacher told me not to tell, i should tell you my mom was employed at the clark art institute when she died 7 days after senator robert f kennedy was assassinated



but before i tell you what she died from i should mention that i raised my gpa at the community college from 1.0 to 3.0 with a neat trick i learned from some other students



first, though i should mention ms w was the first female mayor of the city of pittsfield mass and taught at bcc

images of mt greylock

the neat trick was using a portable tape recorder to record the lectures so my notes would contain all of the material covered in class - i found i was missing up to 25% of the material with handwritten notes from real time


before i mention what was different about the two calculus classes i took and didn't do very well in i should mention the two calculus classes were taught by whom the school paper called two of best mathematicians in the world


instead of saying who they were i'll mention one of them asked the class on the first day if one of us were tape recording the class

my mom died of an apparent heart attack possibly in her sleep

intriguing cabin on mt greylock


the teacher who asked if the class were being recorded had walked into the class room, said five or six multisyllabic strange mathematical sounding words, then walked out of the room, came back in, looked around, then asked if the class were being recorded