Thursday, July 7, 2022

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story



link: https://bit.ly/2UiIBpK




leonard cohen 'hallelujah'












john 8:33



in the fall of 1978 when i was a sophmore at mt greylock regional highschool we were told the williams college psychology dept offered to do an experiment using hypnosis to improve our football team 's play







the first two strings of the backfield were chosen to participate, though i think participation was voluntary, i am not certain now



the one exception was the first three strings at the quarterback position would be included



i was the third string quarterback at that point









poemart



the next year i became starting quarterback



one of the players who were part of the study broke two vertebrae the first game of my junior year but only missed two games







when i visited him in the hospital he was eating a pizza burger which i've often craved since but which i recall not finding on a menu until i became a vegetarian










today is the day after the sutherland springs, texas church shooting and i am about to decide to ask the williams college psych dept for info on the experiment



williamstown is where the professor who discovered teleportation, the doctor who invented the trigger to the atomic bomb, and the scientist who invented the fundemental component of the computer chip lived



former c i a director and ambassador to iran  richard helms graduated from williams college  in 1935 and destroyed the c i a' s copies of the mk ultra files in 1973



richard helms' grandfather was the ceo of the rockefellers' chase bank before he became ceo of the rockefeller founded bis bank that was taken over by the nazis



the bis bank is the central bank of the world's central banks



richard helms had been the ambassador to iran just before the revolution and that is probably why the shah's family moved to our town in 1979



iran is still mad at the u s because david rockefeller got jimmy carter to let the shah - and his $ billions - into the u s







my first job was at modern dairy (now green river) farm throwing hay for my cousin moses, 4 years before reagan's federal dairy buyout in 1986



i worked on a small family dairy farm and the cows seemed very content - they would walk in on their own to the milking parlor to be milked to get the oats that would pour into stainless steel bowls from the grain silo, but i dont know what happened to all of the calves



the egg industry has discovered a way to tell if a fertilized egg is male or female



mass d o t might build a bike path along green river road this summer :


- the way





the manager of the farm at the time was a guy called fritzy who would look at me funny like i was supposed to do something odd


art page

turns out he looked very similar to to the german steel magnate fritz thyssen and the farm was next door to the store at five corners recently purchased by william vanderbilt the 3rd whose family were railroad magnates

the town was a small new england college town and for some reason the college once owned one half of the town of littleton maine just north of houlton

five corners


about a quarter of a mile north of the store at 5 corners  stood the hall house where winston churchill's great grandfather once lived

churchill s mother jennie jerome was credited with creating the college s school colors for an early baseball game against harvard



another quarter of a mile north finds our highschool where in our 7th grade year of the class of 1981 a teacher told us one of our fellow students was the grandson of rudolf hess 





and later the left tackle of our kosier league champ football team, who himself was very unracist, mentioned to me on the bus home from practice that he was one of hitler's god children




mt greylock rhs

 both robby steele and fritzy were there during hay season and the way i remember it explained to me was that fritzy was the farm's manager, robby was using the farm's milking equipment for his cows and moses was storing his hay in the hayloft



so field farm, once owned by the field family, neighbors cricket creek farm once owned by william vanderbilt, both about a mile west from modern dairy /  green river farm and both at the intersection of oblong road and sloane road 

did the famous " silver spoon communist " frederick vanderbilt field once own the field farm which neighbored the famous " oss capitalist " william h vanderbilt lll 's cricket creek farm?

they were both great - great grandsons of cornelius vanderbilt






so piecing together the old north adams transcript snippets, iberkshires and berkshire eagle stories, mr vanderbilt lived on cricket creek farm which is at the west end of sloan road and bought steele's corners store from jim steele in 1978 while fritzy bought modern dairy farm from jim or robert steele in 1954 and retired while auctioning off his cows in 1980 the year before i worked there



william henry vanderbilt lll



frederick vanderbilt field's autobiography

william vanderbilt purchased mr henry l  george s milk route in 1949





modern dairy milk bottle



the milk route may have become modern dairy milk which was the milk delivery service in the area and whose central bottling plant was on main st just before entering north adams from williamstown

milk box

we all had lidded metal boxes saying modern dairy on them outside our doors where the milkman would leave the milk in the morning in 1/2 gallon bottles



view from town selectwoman anne o'connor s fb

the reason it matters is that during ww2 mr  vanderbilt went from being a lieutenant commander in the navy to the executive officer ( second in command )  of the oss s special operations dept then became governor of rhode island before retiring to williamstown where a story begins...

you see, my mom died 7 days after rfk was assassinated on june 6, 1968 and i'm hearing little clicks in my ear as i type almost each of these letters like my ear is receiving the microwave signal through the frey effect


art page



william l langer  studied in worcester, mass, was president of harvard history dept, a dragon soldier and the chief of the research and analysis branch of the oss




as you can see, fritz langer's modern dairy farm bordered the land encompassing elm tree lane, where elm house, owned by jd rockefeller 's third daughter alta rockefeller prentice lived in mount hope farm


robert langer was born in albany but so far there is no information on wiki or his bios who his parents were

check out this robert langer





- c i a .gov 2010



alta rockefeller prentice

president taft finally broke up standard oil in 1911 

in 1910 the rockefellers bought mt hope farm which was about 3/4 of a mile away from where my dad and my aunt sally were born in a barn near where stratton road meets blair road



google maps

 it's not the phone speaker making the clicking noises it was clicking directly in my left ear...guess they are just more clues to the story that i decided to begin after i died one day back in 1997

thought i had heard mother theresa had died the day before and then thought i heard  princess di died the day after but...

the clicks are gone now and i didn't really die back in 1997 i guess but my heart stopped beating and a choirlike voice asked me if I was ready to die as i literally saw what appeared to be a vision of two wrought gate doors which seemed to be swimming with an off white light


 i said no












https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Paperclip



 my sis was upset with me for telling her kurt lehovec was an operation paperclip scientist - and then she told me the story of how he escaped the nazis by riding his bicycle across prague in czecheslovakia and finding the allied occupied zone right off the top of her head - she was friends with his daughter they were really nice



he helped create the integrated circuits we are using right now for the princely sum of $1.00 while working at sprague electric

yes one of the founders of the modern computer was a townie



berkshire eagle regional dairy farming history


a warm south williamstown hello to our russian visitors because russia is very much part of the story...






i had a russian teacher once, or it was alleged she was russian...she was also reported to be one of the top mathematicians in the world...


we weren't allowed to ask her questions because it was towards the end of the cold war and she had two burly russian teacher 's assistants who sat on either side of her who we could ask questions of

i tried to ask a question once and the t a said " go back ... sit " while pointing at my desk




" That Time Deadpool Dressed As Marilyn Monroe To Kill Zombie JFK "





frederick vanderbilt field


frederick's mom


marilyns missing fbi files were discovered in 2012


new jfk files release says j edgar hoover warned robert f kennedy of marilyn tell all book



view from the field farm


lona cohen


venona project


venona list


field farm


cyrus west field




sports illustrated says mike reily's #50 was unofficially retired after he graduated from williams college june 4th, 1964 even tho the williams football program doesn't retire numbers

the youthful reily died of  hodgkins lymphoma, which is a type of cancer, on july 21, 1964, the year after jfk was assassinated

ultra conservative dr alton ocksner, who allegedly partnered with dr mary sherman on cancer weapon research, worked at the touro institute where mike reily finaly passed away




1753 house at field park, named for cyrus field who laid the first trans atlantic cable 


leonard cohen


memory chimes




hammond castle


had a deck of souvenir playing cards from hammond castle which we visited on a 6 th grade field trip to cape ann ...


its builder, john hays hammond, jr had over 400 patents and was considered the father of remote control


i'm trying to find out what happened to me and maybe all of us...


i really was part of an experiment back in 1978...





  • the tpaak blog says lee harvey oswald worked at reily coffee in new orleans which was owned by mike reily's parents and that a woman who worked there claimed she and a dr mary sherman were trying to create a cancer weapon by injecting mice with monkey viruses



while scott and zelda fitzgerald are said to haunt the don cesar on st pete beach, it is believed the ghost of jack kerouac haunts haslam's book store on central avenue in st pete

this haslam was born and raised in new orleans:


defector from both the u s and u s s r lee harvey said he was going to get a job at n a s a when he was fired from reily coffee allegedly for not greasing the machinery:



judyth vary baker said she and lee harvey oswald dated while they both worked at reily coffee



on july 21st, 1964, the day new orleans favorite son mike reily was transferered to the touro institute where  dr mary sherman, worked, she was murdered

a story told by mice




i thought what happened might have involved the cold war, which was just wrapping up back then

after it was over, they told me i couldn't be hypnotized, but i became adept at the football play i had been having a problem with

i thought the experiment was over they didn't really tell us what the point of it was, that i recall now


a few years later i was at our community college and availed myself of some free therapy sessions i mostly went to to have someone to talk to

a few sessions in the regular therapist told me she wouldn't be doing the therapy anymore, and a man from the williams college psychology dept would be doing the sessions

he was very nice and the sessions still helped so i kept going





while looking to see if the oss special operations had anything to do with mk ultra i came upon john hays hammond which led to the veterans today article and the u s army chemical corps which were involved in some of the experiments with drugs, apparently





the us army chemical corps were known as the dragon soldiers because of mythical green dragon in alchemy lore ?



why did jk rowling choose mt greylock as ilvermorny, the north american  school of witchcraft and wizardry ?

are the green dragon of the chemical corps and the horned serpent of ms rowling's imagination related ?


it may be because there really is the sense of magic or a very pleasant other worldliness about the summit 

also, there was a real harry potter who grew up in north adams and became a musician of note in the early 20th century

i think the mountain is also very important in native american lore








lassel gym




the voice asked me why i wasn't ready to die

the answer may have been from somewhere well within where survival originates

but before i relate the answer i should mention that the man who took the place of my therapist appeared to be the same professor who performed the experiment in 1978 ...the experiment might still have been underway and i probably wasn't the only one experimented upon


the russian teacher asked me not to tell a secret, according to what i thought were real memories but turned out to apparently be imaginary memories happening in my mind as i thought i was remembering...


but the secret she may have told me not to tell may have been real as was the russian teacher who taught remedial math at asu in 1982


william h vanderbilt lll ' s lieutenant governor in rhode island was james o mcmanus


george mcmanus was in the seabees during ww2


but before i mention what the secret the imaginary russian teacher told me not to tell, i should tell you my mom was employed at the clark art institute when she died 7 days after senator robert f kennedy was assassinated







but before i tell you what she died from i should mention that i raised my gpa at the community college from 1.0 to 3.0 with a neat trick i learned from some other students



first, though i should mention ms w was the first female mayor of the city of pittsfield mass and taught at bcc













the neat trick was using a portable tape recorder to record the lectures so my notes would contain all of the material covered in class - i found i was missing up to 25% of the material with handwritten notes from real time


before i mention what was different about the two calculus classes i took and didn't do very well in i should mention the two calculus classes were taught by whom the school paper called two of best mathematicians in the world


instead of saying who they were i'll mention one of them asked the class on the first day if one of us were tape recording the class


my mom died of an apparent heart attack possibly in her sleep




the teacher who asked if the class were being recorded had walked into the class room, said five or six multisyllabic strange mathematical sounding words, then walked out of the room, came back in, looked around, then asked if the class were being recorded



hi dr fein

my mom worked at williams for professor wykoff in the '60s 

can the college give me any information on an experiment i recall being a part of in 1978-79 ?

this is the blogger post i've been working on about it :




ty for your time !

keith c taft 

i have a reply from dr fein and he mentioned a professor who was interested in hypnotism may have done a study at williams about that time, so the story goes on !

btw i should mention now i told the voice that asked me why i wasn't ready to die that i wanted to write the greatest science fiction story of all time

what would you say if you were asked why you weren't ready to die 🤣 ?



the greatest meal in the universe and chopin




cheerful schizophrenics fb group for info enlightenment a rare smile and more








dr payne's death 



dr payne iberkshires story


so i'm supposed to write this story, 'the greatest science fiction story ever written' which by the way, someone else already wrote as a short story with that title ( and it was about a novel i once thought was the best science fiction story i had read )


but as you can see the situation is different now that you can write a science fiction story where the stars wink out, then tap the highlighted words ' wink out ' and go to a video of stars winking


it's possible to write the greatest science fiction novel now, though obviously there would be even greater with each advance in technology and ideation

but before i mention how i think the greatest science fiction story ever written could possibly be written i should mention that professor deane taught an interesting class on mathematics andl art for the art dept

'we all got our stories...'





professor deane had like a dent looking scar on his forehead where he had brain surgery for, if i remember correctly, removal of a brain tumor...this is like, 30 years ago and he's still going strong, apparently

ty florida


btw the morning after the above mentioned phone call i began to have pulsatile tinnitus in my left ear





former liverpudlian and edward dorr griffin professor of the history of ideas professor oakley was president of williams just before dr payne



i used to see professor oakley in the lassel gym locker room now and then but i didn't know who he was ...he would look at me like i didn't belong there and i would look back at him like i was highly affronted...then after he was chosen as president i realized he knew exactly who i was and that i didn't belong there because i had ran track at mt greylock with 3 of his 4 kids and he knew i had snuck into the gym by quickly looking at my watch if there was a security guard guarding the door then turning around and leaving like i had forgotten something and entering by one of the other doors


i taught myself how to swim at the college pool


if i remember correctly deidre ran the 100 yrd dash and 440 relay and she was our fastest women's team runner, while also throwing the javelin :





as i recall the women's team, largely due to deidre,  was the best track team in our division in 1975 and 1976





they filled in the lassel pool with cement and made it into the weight room which used to be in the attic


the teacher who said the five or six strange mathematical sounding words gave a seminar on mathematical history at herman melville's home arrowhead once 



it was fascinating he explained the golden ratio, and if i remember correctly, that pythagoras had created a secret society of mathematicians to spread knowledge without allowing it to be used for evil


the professor, it was reported in the school paper, had received complaints from engineering students who were upset that he wouldn't teach them the mathematics they needed to learn how to be able to make atomic weapons




the languedoc region of france, according to the book about the templar treasure by steven sora, contains a hidden pentagon within a pentagram where the knights templar assisted the cathars when they were besieged as part of the inquisition, if i recall the book correctly

so how and would you write the greatest science fiction story ever written without including the search for the holy grail ?

or mentioning the art bell coast to coast radio program, which i called once and as i was dialing something strange happened

hilly rose was guest hosting that evening as art was going through a very strange episode in his life

hilly's guest was carla emery who wrote the book on living off the grid or more accurately wrote the photocopy manifesto

but that night she was talking about her experience finding out that she had been unbeknownst to her, secretly hypnotized at some point in her life which she said she discovered while she was absentmindedly doodling on a piece of paper



carla wrote the encyclopedia of hypnotism called secret, don't tell











 alcohol has the highest suggestibility rating of common hypnotic drugs




it probably isn't important now what i said on the air, as it may have been based onof hypnotic drugs imaginary memories, but what was important was why i was allowed to speak on national radio at all - you see something had happened to carla in mid conversation - her phone had disconnected and hilly couldn't call her back

i might tell what i said here 

but first i should say that i wasn't really very good at math, the only reason i took calculus was because i was obsessively in love with a girl who already had a boyfriend who mentioned she was taking some kind of super calculus, so i thought if i could pass calculus...so how does one search for the holy grail if it involves math ?

okay, so here's where it matters

i've just found out art bell was falsly accused of child abuse, sued his accuser, went back on the air then left after his family were shot at and then threatened with death if art continued his show just before the 2016 presidential election

i have found out something that appears to show that these child sex abuse cases are not natural pedophilia and that some group may be attempting to subvert America through extortion



of course one way to write the story is to just google any math problems that come up ...but before i mention any math or engineering problems that might arise in the search for the greatest science fiction story ever written and the holy grail, we might take a look at mr stone's short story 


but before we do that i should tell you about the time i met jake burton carpenter as he was cross country skiing on the taconic golf course, because of the neat lesson learned from meeting the founder of burton snowboards, whose wife donna attended williams






it's a little long winded so i'll tell it in a bit here,  but before i do that i should relate mr carpenter apparently, and i should check this before i post it, has the same condition fdr may have had i hope he gets well soon




you see, i think there really is a story, because of where i am at the moment

but before i tell you where i am i should remind you that fdr was a master mason and once searched for the templar treasure

i should also tell you telling the story unselfishly has led me to the story, which appears to have been already written



"welcome to to the story..."







fdr searched for the templar treasure at oak island, nova scotia, which is about 30 miles from grand pre, nova scotia

the girl i obsessively fell in love with was a student in the williams college psych dept


i'm in my friend's house in van buren maine


the two calculus professors wouldn't allow me to tape record their classes

the professor who did the hypnotism experiment and the professor who did the pro bono counseling at bcc appear to have been the doctor who finally told me i was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at the pinellas suncoast center when they kicked me out of the homeless outreach program for not applying for disability

of course i didn't think they were all the same professor, i thought they were probably some kind of billy corgan shapeshifter trying to freak me out, so i stayed calm

here's where i lived after we had 4 hurricanes in the space of a year after i got mad at some cops and said ' we need a hurricane ' to myself

first i'd have to tell you about jackie to explain what that means tho and i had wanted to write a small but very lovely poem about jackie first, and ive tried but they have yet to do her justice

today i might email the doctor and maybe he can shed some light on what really happened


douglass adams claimed his favorite writer, pg wodehouse would leave " place holders " at places where he hadn't put the parts of the story together yet :


van buren

first learned of the acadians in the basement of the williams college sawyer library somehow in context with the cathars...i don't remember if they were connected in the reading i just remember learning about them both as once after looking up " catherine "





new france


u s - canadian border 



ephraim williams born march 7th, 1715 or february 24, 1715 died september 8th, 1755



le grande derangement began august 10th, 1755 ended july 11th, 1764



the duke william sank in the north atlantic on december 13th, 1758










van buren


ephraim williams may have died without having children but founded a free school which became williams college that can be audited by any town resident, including native americans, without charge and is ranked the best liberal arts college in america





six months before i saw the vision of the gates and heard the choir voice ask me if i were ready to die, the heaven's gate cult passed away
















beyonce is a direct descendent of  beausoliel



my friend dorothy was from van buren i met her in st petersburg, florida, not russia tho there was once a maid at the don cesar who said she was princess anastasia





the bronfman heiresses are allegedly trapped in a dangerous hypnotic cult in albany ny phonetically called nexium sp nxivm not the heartburn medication


edgar bronfman graduated  williams 1950






valley french  is different from quebecois, parisian, cajun and other acadian :



franz anton mesmer created the concept called animal magnetism which would later be discovered to be hypnotism














alfred p sloan worked for the nazis


'Thousands of pages of decades'-old documents were scrutinized and reexamined to produce this series, which sheds new light on GM's relationship with the Third Reich - and on the company's activities in America. They reveal that even as GM was helping jump-start the resurgent German military, it was undermining America's electric mass transit, and in doing so helped spawn America's unquenchable thirst for oil. '








dr alfred bedford's father worked for standard oil, which was the same thing


alfred p sloan foundation funded a study at williams on...









- wiley online

au·di·to·ry
/ˈôdəˌtôrē/
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adjective
'relating to the sense of hearing'


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vig·i·lance


/ˈvijələns/


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noun

'the action or state of keeping careful watch for possible danger or difficulties.

"security duties that demand long hours of vigilance"'

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e·lec·tro·der·mal


/əˌlektrōˈdərməl/


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adjective

'relating to measurement of the electrical conductivity of the skin, especially as an indicator of someone's emotional responses.'

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cor·re·late(s)


verb


/ˈkôrəˌlāt/


'have a mutual relationship or connection, in which one thing affects or depends on another.'

"the study found that success in the educational system correlates highly with class

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Response

'1 : an act of responding. 2 : something constituting a reply or a reaction: such as. a : a verse, phrase, or word sung or said by the people or choir after or in reply to the officiant in a liturgical service.'

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'Habituation is a decrease in response to a stimulus after repeated presentations. For example, a new sound in your environment, such as a new ringtone, may initially draw your attention or even become distracting.'

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speed


/spēd/


noun

1.


'the rate at which someone or something is able to move or operate.'

"we turned onto the runway and began to gather speed"


Similar:


rate


pace


tempo


momentum

2.


each of the possible gear ratios of a bicycle or motor vehicle.


verb

1.


move quickly.


"I got into the car and home we sped"

2.


ARCHAIC


make prosperous or successful.


"may God speed you"





- auditory vigilance example from researchgate


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-mit .edu example of electrodermal response










williams college president adam falk steps down this month to become head of alfred p sloan foundation


j edna hoover ??



patrick flanagan had invented the neurophobne in 1968 allowing voices and sounds to be transmitted inside the brain


the mystery of the missing note books



williams college faculty page





national institutes of health claim precluding subvococalization can cure hallucinations and people have been hypnotized into psychosis


okay, something's happened that i really should tell you about but first art bell passed away two weeks ago ( it's april 27th this evening ) thanks to art and the caller from san fransisco who called into art's uncensored phone lines to report it, u s code title 50 section 1520 which allowed the u s government to experiment on u s citizens without their permission or knowledge, was repealed in 1997

u s code title 50 section 1520




elohim was another name for god

also about 2 weeks ago something happened while i was resting peacefully just before bedtime

i should probably tell you a little about my psych condition, which maybe i'll do here later

or how about here:



- fb 


...and here:



when i was about 9 or 10 i noticed two lines on my forehead that were out of place because i had no other lines on my face at that age

the image shows a bump on my forehead below the top line, which if i press, the images and voices i see in my mind disapear

the sylvester's gave us a kind of crazy siamese cat - when he was indoors he was our best friend and a really great cat but when we let him out something happened to him and he would become psycho and try to kill us sometimes - not every time

i had to go to the berkshire medical associates on stratton road and maine street once to get stitches on my cheek and my forehead once after the cat had tried to kill me

dr surgenor who put the stitches in said to me - 'wow you have really interesting lines on your forehead, you know'







but i've been living with these visions and images of cartoon looking people for the last 21 years just about every waking moment and it's been a long train of one emergency after another from attacks to people getting hurt and victimized, it's been really stressful sometimes as i find myself in the position of aparently having to try to maintain a civilization in my own mind 

the people are now closer to me than my bio family

but about two weeks ago as i was resting peacefully in my tent at my campsite in st pete the people were pretty quiet because of another thing i should tell you about then what felt like a 3/4 inch sphere seemed to drop down out of my brain through the roof of my mouth, push it's way through the side of my left cheek, hop out onto my shoulder, then it seemed to jump down to the floor of the tent...

after a few moments it hopped back up onto my shoulder, hopped two or three times across my chest and waited...for some reason, i guess since it seemed to hop like a very nice person, and apeared to not have anywhere else to go, i asked it if it wanted to go back inside my head, then i picked it up and popped it back into my mouth where it rose up through the roof of my mouth and back into my brain

the whole time it was outside my head, i was no longer schizophrenic

i had no hallucinations or voices 

for the first time in 21 years i was at true peace just like before i found the hypnotic trigger

btw the ball hopped very similarly to jot













- bugged space 




williams college professor william wootters discovered teleportation in williamstown

when i was in my teens i had a few very strange experiences

one day i woke up and there was this pale white face wearing an also pale white cowboy hat 

the face had no eyes, nose or mouth

it said to me 'be a good person'

also in my teens i woke up from a dream where these two very strange and threatening male humanoid looking beast like people and a pretty girl appeared at the end of the dream as i awoke

i didnt know what to do about it i thought the two beast like people might hurt the girl

so much later when i was an adult i found out who they were

you know the 2 beast like people, i did

i sent them back in time to protect the pretty girl after i went crazy when i found the hypnotic trigger

but i only realized that they were the people i had seen and wondered about in the dream just after i sent them back in time in my mind

they were wolverine, sabertooth and cathy:

https://bit.ly/2FJDSFC










; 

wired article on targeted individuals


i havent told anyone else this yet, just you:

somebody did something to me and maybe my family and that is why i mention it to you because of your last name and the the history with the rockefellers


they maybe did it to all of us and i think if we find out the truth it will really makes us free

i worked third shift on the 2nd floor of carol cable on the coilers which we would insert one plug end into a hole of a steel disk with metal pegs sticking out of it then step on a foot pedal and the machine would spin the disc until the 8' electrical cords the factory made would be coiled then we'd stick the coil into a wire tie machine and it would tie the coil 

there was a lady who drove a car with vermont plates who worked on the coilers too and she would play country songs on her tape player

one of the songs she would play was 'cathy's clown' 

a girl named cathy had left me a year or so earlier so the song started to tick me off

so one day i brought my boom box in too 

one of my favorite songs 'hypnotize my soul' by the legendary pink dots came on and the lady started freaking out yelling for the 3rd shift manager 'bob ! bob ! make him turn it off !'

i told her i have a right to listen to music too !

then she calls me 'k c' which only my family and people who knew me when i was a young child call me

- she said 'it's not that k c' and she gives me a hug 'i did something terrible to you when you were a child' so i ask her if she will tell me what she did and she  said 'maybe someday' so i told her i forgive her (because she was being so honest) and she said 'i don't think you can forgive me'


c i a psychological warfare files stored at the rockefeller estate in pocantico, ny


i remember reading in rolling stone magazine in the 1980s an article that asked celebrities what was the funniest story they had ever read, and being very upset that though many chose kurt vonnegut stories (my favorite author at the time) the story that was chosen most often was 'the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy'



'When asked to produce the Ultimate Question, Deep Thought says that it cannot; however, it can help to design an even more powerful computer that can. This new computer will incorporate living beings into the "computational matrix" and will run for ten million years. The computer is revealed as being the planet Earth, with its pan-dimensional creators assuming the form of white lab mice to observe its running. The process is hindered after eight million years by the unexpected arrival on Earth of the Golgafrinchans, and is then ruined completely, five minutes prior to completion, when the Earth is destroyed by the Vogons to supposedly make way for a new hyperspace bypass. In The Restaurant at the End of the Universe, this reason is revealed to have been a ruse: the Vogons had been hired to destroy the Earth by a consortium of psychiatrists, led by Gag Halfrunt, who feared for the loss of their careers when the Ultimate Question became known.[5]

Lacking a real question, the mice (pan-dimensional beings) decide not to go through the whole process again and instead settle for the out-of-thin-air suggestion "How many roads must a man walk down?", a lyric from Bob Dylan's song "Blowin' in the Wind".'



- the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy wiki





- 42 roads





- mom worked for professor william o wyckoff at williams, which had a univac



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Near 2015 went out walking at 3:00 am from the Rivenel Bridge in north charleston crazy and seemingly free, at least from my medication, looking for adventure and pizza and met this very charming and lovely lady who said her name was 'Queenie' and that my mom had sent her as we walked to an old graveyard in Charleston i sang a line of this song i liked to sing when was out walking by myself  to her.




'Undeneath your clothes, there's an endless story...' 




she said then that she loved that song and it was one of her favorite songs:
















- julia 








another julia who saved a giant tree named 'luna':










perpetrated a crime against our community college creative writing teacher when i was a senior in high school




she got us to write journals also and we were supposed to report on the things we did during the day but my life was so boring i started writing song lyrics instead and writing down ideas for inventions and drawing leaves and plants for learning landscaping and landscape architecture




she later became a successful and talented artist - jan aronson - her step son was a songwriter and gave away a number of his songs to popular artists, including a very famous one to celine dion 




he eventually became the creator & owner of both the warner music group and universal music group




years later i began to hear songs on the radio that i believed i had written the lyrics to after all of the notebooks i kept as journals had gone missing




one of the songs i believe i wrote the words to was 'what's the frequency kenneth ?' by rem




i mention it because there is a line in this song that i believe i know what the meaning of it is and i would like to explain it as i percieved when i believe i wrote it - because of julia's nickname 




i had fallen off a roof and got amnesia just before i believe i wrote the first draft lyrics when i tried to go back to the community college around 1985-86 for the fall semester





the teachers and advisors i trusted told me to that i should drop out of college before i messed up my grade point average (now a still clean 3.0) because i had trouble speaking - my voice was slurred after i fell off a roof





i remember writing what i believed was the first draft of 'what's the frequency kenneth ?' in the berkshire community college activity center after reading a story about dan rather reporting having been attacked by two men, one of whom asked him 'what's the frequency, kenneth ?' in the library's copy of 'rolling stone'





as you can tell, that is an intriguing story 





what i wrote in my journal about it was what i believed was word salad - just nonsense phrases that sounded crazy, which conveyed the feeling i got from the rolling stone story, but they sounded too childish and innocent - like 'alice in wonderland'





i remember writing 'butterfly teacup, two for tea' then





later i became homeless in florida and remember wanting to fix up that poem and struggled with it





had recently (then) read a science fiction story that was based upon an older story about hunters who travel back in time to hunt dinosaurs, but one of their vehicles ran over a dragonfly and changed their future





the newer time travel novel was about what became known as 'the butterfly effect' about how a butterfly can create a hurricane through time





i believe when i wrote the words 'butterfly decal rearview mirror dogging the scene' i percieved heart's 'dog and butterfly' with that time travel warning story, compounded with mac davis's 'happiness is lubbock, texas in my rearview mirror'





if the notebooks ever come forth and my beliefs about them validated, at least you will know what the lyrics meant, from my perspective





but the main thing that i received from those journals, which has immeasurable intrinsic value now, is that, after attempting suicide 3 times and feeling a really deep longstanding shame hidden inside me for decades, finding out here with the phones about ms aronson and her family really healed that awkward gaping spiritual wound inside me and now my life feels truthfully god-scripted and divinely inspired 





i believe the same feeling awaits all of you as well


story





link: https://bit.ly/2UiIBpK





leonard cohen 'hallelujah'

























John 8:33





in the fall of 1978 when i was a sophmore at mt greylock regional highschool we were told the williams college psychology dept offered to do an experiment using hypnosis to improve our football team 's play

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Monday, August 21, 2017

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Near 2015 went out walking at 3:00 am from the Rivenel Bridge in north charleston crazy and seemingly free, at least from my medication, looking for adventure and pizza and met this very charming and lovely lady who said her name was 'Queenie' and that my mom had sent her as we walked to an old graveyard in Charleston i sang a line of this song i liked to sing when was out walking by myself  to her.




'Undeneath your clothes, there's an endless story...' 




she said then that she loved that song and it was one of her favorite songs:
















- julia 








another julia who saved a giant tree named 'luna':










perpetrated a crime against our community college creative writing teacher when i was a senior in high school




she got us to write journals also and we were supposed to report on the things we did during the day but my life was so boring i started writing song lyrics instead and writing down ideas for inventions and drawing leaves and plants for learning landscaping and landscape architecture




she later became a successful and talented artist - jan aronson - her step son was a songwriter and gave away a number of his songs to popular artists, including a very famous one to celine dion 




he eventually became the creator & owner of both the warner music group and universal music group




years later i began to hear songs on the radio that i believed i had written the lyrics to after all of the notebooks i kept as journals had gone missing




one of the songs i believe i wrote the words to was 'what's the frequency kenneth ?' by rem




i mention it because there is a line in this song that i believe i know what the meaning of it is and i would like to explain it as i percieved when i believe i wrote it - because of julia's nickname 




i had fallen off a roof and got amnesia just before i believe i wrote the first draft lyrics when i tried to go back to the community college around 1985-86 for the fall semester





the teachers and advisors i trusted told me to that i should drop out of college before i messed up my grade point average (now a still clean 3.0) because i had trouble speaking - my voice was slurred after i fell off a roof





i remember writing what i believed was the first draft of 'what's the frequency kenneth ?' in the berkshire community college activity center after reading a story about dan rather reporting having been attacked by two men, one of whom asked him 'what's the frequency, kenneth ?' in the library's copy of 'rolling stone'





as you can tell, that is an intriguing story 





what i wrote in my journal about it was what i believed was word salad - just nonsense phrases that sounded crazy, which conveyed the feeling i got from the rolling stone story, but they sounded too childish and innocent - like 'alice in wonderland'





i remember writing 'butterfly teacup, two for tea' then





later i became homeless in florida and remember wanting to fix up that poem and struggled with it





had recently (then) read a science fiction story that was based upon an older story about hunters who travel back in time to hunt dinosaurs, but one of their vehicles ran over a dragonfly and changed their future





the newer time travel novel was about what became known as 'the butterfly effect' about how a butterfly can create a hurricane through time





i believe when i wrote the words 'butterfly decal rearview mirror dogging the scene' i percieved heart's 'dog and butterfly' with that time travel warning story, compounded with mac davis's 'happiness is lubbock, texas in my rearview mirror'





if the notebooks ever come forth and my beliefs about them validated, at least you will know what the lyrics meant, from my perspective





but the main thing that i received from those journals, which has immeasurable intrinsic value now, is that, after attempting suicide 3 times and feeling a really deep longstanding shame hidden inside me for decades, finding out here with the phones about ms aronson and her family really healed that awkward gaping spiritual wound inside me and now my life feels truthfully god-scripted and divinely inspired 





i believe the same feeling awaits all of you as well


story





link: https://bit.ly/2UiIBpK





leonard cohen 'hallelujah'

























John 8:33





in the fall of 1978 when i was a sophmore at mt greylock regional highschool we were told the williams college psychology dept offered to do an experiment using hypnosis to improve our football team 's play

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